Looking back 2013

On New Year's Eve, I was with friends and talking about best things and worst things in 2013. In my case, the best thing is that I graduated, and the worst thing is that I graduated. Sounds interesting, right?

I didn't imagine to do graduate study when I started college at JSU. But, now I have both undergraduate and graduate degrees. Now I can do research with statistical analysis. I learned nonprofit management and fundraising.

But, now I'm stuck and have no idea of what path I should take. I spent the second half of the year just searching for an opportunity with no success. I have had a couple of interview either over the phone or face-to-face toward the end of the year, but I closed the year with no clear sight of next step.

In terms of career development, 2013 saw no progress. Yes I graduated, but now what? And the question remains unanswered. 

I have added Ph.D. as another option. I don't know if academia is right for me, and I've never thought it would be. But, as I researched for my graduate research project, I enjoyed finding data and running analysis.

I think my faith was tested during the time of hardship. For the first time in my life, I left stranded. God pushed me into a dark hallway with many doors and I couldn't see far. As I was entering a room close to me, He closed. I tried another one, and He closed it again. It's like he is telling me not to trust my eyes, but Him. I started seek more words from Scripture.

I hope I have more clarity in 2014. But I also want to be hungry for God's guidance and His words.