Two couples already have kids. One of them has a twin and I like to play with them. In August when a friend of mine, living in Michigan now, came to visit, she stayed with them. As I picked up her at the airport and dropped her off at their house, I get to see them for the first time and they seemed to like me too.
The couple invited me along with other friends after the wedding and reception. I thought I would go, but I decided to head straight to another friend's house where I'm staying over the weekend. First because no one else was going and it was already 7:30. The babies might be asleep already (they left an hour earlier than we did as we talked for extra one hour. Second, I was a little tired and also as I was wearing suits, I thought I wanted to be more casual to go into their house.
Then I thought, how difficult it is to keep in touch with old friends! Especially when they are far or married and have kids.
The couple even told me that I should visit them sometimes. I'm grateful for that, but then I find myself searching for the reason to visit, like a old friends from far coming over. Should I just think that I want to visit because I haven't seen them for a long time?
How should I keep in touch with friends? Even with Facebook, it seems difficult for me. Not that I'm shy to friends or anything (but I'm shy in general) nor I don't value friendship. But, even with friends in reachable distance, I don't see them unless there is a reason. Something in my mind makes me think that I shouldn't even talk to them without a reason.
I know some people call just randomly friends and ask what they have been up to. Is that something I should do?
And one other thing. I feel like I've been left out. I mean everybody gets married and often at younger age than mine. The fact that majority of my Sunday School class members (GAP-Graduates and Professionals) are married also enhance that feeling. Since breaking up with a girl I dated during the summer of last year, I haven't seen possibility of .even dating.
I know someone may come up to me at time the least expected, and certainly that was the case when I met the girl whom I dated last year. Just I feel behind. I'm not the person who has determined to stay single. I want to marry some day and make a family. I want to show my parents their grandchildren. I had a blessing to have been able to see my grandparents for my first twenty years of my life. And I want my kids to have same blessing. Not only my future wife's side family, but also mine.
I know I'm different because I'm one of a few Asians around here and from different cultural background. But is that too much to ask for.
